[this post is purely for my own research, collecting pieces of the intricate puzzle that is my birthchart]
Where is home?
What does it feel like?
Where do I feel home?
How many homes will I have to build to feel secure enough to leave again? And again?
Today's Big Feeling was anxiety. Spent some time (some hours, many more seconds) calling home, recalling things and thoughts and desicions waiting for me to look them in the eye (face them). Things like bookings and gigs, taking up courses in uni (ahre), finding /losing housing in bxl, facing fear and confronting conflict, communicating my deep inner waters, pouring it into the sea of information blasting through my outer perception at full speed. Pisces season is softly kicking my ass, and Im taking it hard. A mirrored (piscean, transmasuline, sensual and spontaneous) connection was found (not in a way of seeking but in a way of stumbling upon) and I lost myself, my sense of self, my body in the moment. Pisces energy, the archetype is telling us/me/we to not talk all the time, to tune into other parts of our vessels (heartspace, womb, noses,
Virgo is ruled by the wing-footed messenger god Mercury, who also rules Virgo’s unlikely celestial sister, Gemini. Mercury, who is in charge of communication, knowledge, and technology, lends Virgo their legendary brainpower and lust for information and know-how.
Because Virgo’s mind is constantly in overdrive—almost as if it’s in competition with itself—these personalities are total whiz kids when it comes to getting shit done the right way, down to the last nitty-gritty detail.
Still, that powerful intellectual energy can sabotage thoughtful, gentle Virgo, overpowering their minds and evoking tendencies toward over-thinking everything. This obsessive nature can lead to overkill, particularly because these signs are so prone to skepticism
Virgo wants to do everything right and will feel utterly incomplete if they allow themselves to be associated with a less-than-perfect job. Perfectionism can often cloud Virgo’s thinking; These personalities love picking things apart but have trouble with putting them back together, sometimes neglecting to see the bigger picture
Mental prisons of my own making keep taking up more space. Thought trying to erase but take more space. Having thoughts cost energy. Consciously tracking them costs energy. Ideas that sit for too long become poison.J Have I become poisened?
Virgos are known worrywarts notorious for becoming plagued with anxiety, thanks to all that massive brainpower they’re wielding. Exercise helps, but because Virgo the Virgin rules the intestines as well as the nervous system, many late-August and September-born people have trouble with their digestive systems and bowels reacting negatively to nervousness, stress, and generalized anxiety. When upset, Virgo’s surroundings and environments do wonders for soothing their jangled nerves. Many choose to decorate with warm earth tones, especially yellows, golds, mustards, and neutral hues like shades of tan or beige.
Al I reading this piece or is it reading me??! My stomach has been fucked up ever since coming back from the forest. Altough I'm eating mostly vegan and trying to limit gluten my body seems to be in a state of alarm at all times. My thoughts are racing against themselves and the most intrusive one seems te win.
Shadow side of the virgin
One of the cardinal negative traits of Virgos occurs when their analytical minds take a turn from brilliant into obsessive, driving these people to overthink and overanalyze to a detrimental degree. Sometimes, Virgo simply takes things too seriously and overlooks the humor during these phases of a hyperactive mind. Other times, it completely stifles their creativity, dulling their imaginations completely until they are able to “let go.”
Virgo, like their planetary sibling Gemini, is extremely susceptible to nervousness and anxiety, another function of their superpowered brains developing beyond their control. These signs are extreme worrywarts, as they like to be prepared for all possible outcomes of every situation imaginable. Sthey tend to bite off more responsibility than they can chew. And because Virgo is ruled by the intestines, these signs are prone to carrying their stress in their stomachs and bowels, causing physical ailments in those areas when they become too worked up.
Becoming overly fastidious is another common trait in Virgos. These signs are perfectionists, which can get in the way of doing things quickly—or completely derail their entire day’s schedule (which will drive Virgo nuts). It’s a vicious cycle with Virgins: They will not be able to move on from one task to the next until they are completely confident that they’ve done a perfect job. Obviously, perfection is a myth, so this hamster-wheel mindset enslaves Virgo, ultimately resulting in self-punishment to the point of abuse. After all, Virgo the Virgin likes things to be exactly pure and will quickly become their own worst enemy with overly harsh criticism and self-sabotage
Overthinking, thinking how this could be over, missing the present performance while stucck in a projection of the past. HAMSTER WHEEL MINDSET
via https://www.nylon.com/articles/all-about-virgo
Gemini Rising (Scorpio 6 — Taurus 12)
Gemini is the first air sign and represents the mind and the intellect. Geminis enjoy the novelty and excitement of new thoughts and ideas and love to be “in the know”. Because of Gemini’s association with pure thought, this sign can be disconnected emotionally. Scorpio in the 6th asks Gemini to cultivate depth, focus and commitment, while becoming aware of a tendency toward superficiality and fear of stagnation. This helps Gemini form meaningful attachments and cultivate inner security.
https://www.wellbeing.com.au/mind-spirit/astrology/the-6th-and-12th-astrological-houses.html
ARIES SEASON SHADOW WORK The shadow side of Aries is aggressive, angry, risky, domineering, and pushy. It moves fast and impulsively, reacts defensively, and can get caught up in competitive ego battles. It’s important to stay conscious of these energies arising within you and your environment during this season, so you can give them space to breathe, accept that they’re a part of you, and transmute their energy into fuel to move you forward. Also, with the North Node currently in Taurus and the South node in Scorpio, our karmic ties with control and manipulation are floating around in the collective awareness as we reconcile with life as a spiritual being in a physical body. This transit also speaks to the power of our senses and how to move our deep, dark emotions out of the goo of the sensory realm, into physical, tangible creations and resources. Black moon Lilith, representative of our carnal desires, suppressed rage, and exiled feminine aspects, is in Leo through October 2023, bringing up shadows around the ways in which we block our gifts, suppress our light, and hide away in fear.
Your 10th house in astrology can illuminate features that will be helpful in your career in addition to the very fields in which you may work well. The 10th house also deals with parental figures because our deepest motivations around our careers often stem from our family of origin. “How does family and the way that we were raised instruct the way we show up professionally?”
The 10th house can also be interpreted as more esoteric as it is the highest section of the birth chart. “It's typically the space where we are connected to our highest aspirations, our highest potential, and where we can actually locate our strengths, gifts, and abilities given to us by God or the Universe as we understand it,” Bedell says.
Of course, the intel provided by the 10th house in astrology are just broad strokes, and not an exact blueprint for you to follow. "Look at the qualities and the aspects and the preferences of the sign in the 10th house, and use that to shape your work environment," Tran says. Check out exactly what she means below.
"Aquarius is the sign of innovation change in technology," Tran says. "Aquarius needs to be in an environment where they can brainstorm, be rewarded for unorthodox ideas, and play the role of the dreamer or idealist."
You're also fabulous at networking and would likely do well in marketing, public relations, at a start-up, or as a professor.
Planets
In addition to signs, your birth chart also includes planets, and they can highlight facets of your personality. "Each of the planets represents different aspects of who we are,"
Uranus
This is the planet of innovation and change. You can expect your career to be full of positive twists and turns—and you enjoy that unpredictability.
Aquarius South Node / Leo North Node
People with a south node in Aquarius are used to working towards better humanity for all while downplaying the needs of the self. Humanitarian ideals will always be at the core of this person’s efforts, yet in this life as a north node in Leo, it just isn’t enough.
A person with these placements needs to accept their validation needs and be the center of attention. Often, this placement struggles with the push and pull of wanting to be seen vs. fearing to be truly seen. For this reason, it can help if this individual learns how to take on the role of someone who enjoys the spotlight so that they can play around with and pretend until it comes naturally to them - sort of “faking it” until they make it, in a way.
CHIRON
https://wisdomtavern.com/chiron-in-sixth-house/